"Can't live with them, can't live WITHOUT THEM." I simply CANNOT.
To say today was a challenge would be the biggest understatement of my adult life. Without sharing the entirety of the story let me just paint a pretty little picture for ya . Wes walks in the door at 5:30 pm today (which is SUPER early for him.) I'm holding a crying Charlotte. Paisley has been whining about WHO knows what (and hasn't let up all day.) I just realized I haven't brushed my teeth or showered since yesterday, perhaps even the day before. With every notch the noise level rises, my half dead brain becomes that much more mushy. The crap literally hit the freakin fan. (Speaking of crap, how does it seem to get e.v.e.r.y.w.h.e.r.e with a newborn?) Anyway, this is when I just start to laugh... and then I too, start to CRY!!! So all three girls are crying. This all happened as Wes walked in the door. hahaha. Wow. Then I look at Wes and I know it's all going to be okay because he was here now and I was RESCUED!! I'm so lucky to have him when he is home. He's a great help. I almost lost my mind today! This adjustment period has not been a walk in the park for us. I went into this thinking that the second child would be easier all around. After all, I had done this before and how hard could it be?? Right. I'm getting it handed to me. And perhaps it's well deserved.
I thought to myself today (as I was covered in poop, not my own, for the second time today..."I'm not getting paid near enough. I need a raise!" What I'm saying is that being a mom is a full time job. It's the good the bad and the ugly at it's finest. I would be lying if I said I LOVED the part of motherhood that smells like poop, throw up and no shower. That being said, I couldn't live WITHOUT IT! I couldn't live without everything these two little beauty's bring to LIFE! I feel so blessed to be a mother, even if it IS the hardest thing sometimes.
-Ashley-
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Sorry. One day they'll be bigger and you'll be glad you didn't kill them.
It gets easier girl! I had a really hard time adjusting from 1 to 2 kids, but 3 was sooo easy. You are just used to not having any "me" time. :) I hope having a 4th will be just as easy. You are a great mom and your girls are lucky to have you! Hang in there...it will get easier!
I totally know what you are going through. I had one of those days yesterday. Can you even imagine when all of your kids are in school and you have the whole day to yourself!
2 was such a hard adjustment for me too. I almost lost my mind many times, but it gets so much easier so fast. You are doing great and your little girlies love their mommy so much!
haha Ash you make me laugh. You are doing a great job! I know those days! I am scared for the adjustment period to two! Hang in there :)
Ash- I am about to cry because I know that song or should I say dance all to well. You are the best mom. Those girls are so lucky to have a great mom like you. All moms come to that point more then a few times but the great moms don't give up. The secret is remembering how much you love them and can't live with out them. Just like what you said. We miss you all and are so excited about DISNEYLAND with the family.
Ash you are such a good mom! I love that you are honest and real about motherhood...it's the best thing ever, but gosh it sure is hard some days. Call me if you ever need a break and need to drop off the kiddos for some "Me" time. :)
Oh my. This is exactly why I am super nervous about having a baby #2. I loved how real you painted your day, and I love how you finished with the positive.
It doesn't help me that I am already a tad on the crazy side. I am worried what will become of me and my future children...
I have to say that the whole mother thing freaks me out! I dont feel like I have what it takes to be a "super Mom" like mine was. But everyone has to try it one day. Your girls are adoreable and I am sure that you a wonderful mom! You are one of the kindest people I have ever known.
Oh this made laugh and almost cry at the same time. Its so nice for you to be honest about how hard it is bc frankly im scared to death! But your amazing and somehow you'll get through this. xoxo
You are amazing! LOVE YOU ASH.
so this post made me cry because I am feeling the EXACT same way!sometimes they are little monsters but sometimes they are the best, funniest, sweetest little things that melt your heart. ps. that picture is HILARIOUS to me!
All I can say is AMEN! I only have one and I feel the same way... I know when I have 2 or more its going to be even more challenging and rewarding at the same time! But just think how good those two girlies will take care of you when you're old and they are mommies! :) Thats why I definitley want a girl one day!
I love it when zach comes home. The whole mood of our home totally changes and everyone is happier. Hang in there my dear. Im a bit nervous for a second maybe a third child to enter a house One day. Not today or tomorrow or this year.
You definitely aren't alone. My favorite part is when you said "I think I showered a day ago" because I have those thoughts VERY REGULARLY. -when did I shower last? -have I brushed my teeth? -did I eat breakfast? --- all of them! Adam will come home and ask if something got done that I was trying to do and I will respond with "if I haven't showered today, nothing else got done either" :) My sister said that the 3rd is the easiest because the 1st is then old enough to help a bit. So hopefully it gets easier with 2 and then 3 will be a breeze! :)
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